Philippines, my home, my only home

TO my friends:

Always think that I am still here and ready for any assistance as much as I can. Always remeber that I still remember you all there. I know you're not used to me being this emotional but Canada has already changed my cheerful aura. My Filipinoey aura. That's what happens when you're communication with people like you are cut off. People like me are you guys there in the Philippines. The only group that will really understand who I really am.

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Some people are made for love and some people aren't. Some people are meant to fall in love and be successful and some are meant to fail. I am the second one. Is not made for love and is made to fail. I may be a born leader, a born writer, a born musician, a born scientist, or whatever. But I am not a born-lover or atleast that's what I see. I see it unfolding beneath my eyes. I see what faith (or God) wants me to see (I think so). I can see what I would be.
I see that I'm never made for these stuff. I can see that I'm not made to be a great lover but a great friend I am. Everyone of my friends in the Philippines would agree (they are the only ones who really knows me or most of me). They would like me by their side as a friend, an ally forever. Not their partner. Two very similar terms but nevertheless different. No matter how I try to avert my attention from these things, it is entirely unavoidable. How can I avoid the extremely obvious?
My qualities as a being proves or supports this theory. When I fall in love, I really FALL (literally) in love. I'm no fun to be with. I'm a loner. I'm shy. My eyes are hostile to newcomers who aren't used to it. I don't talk much. I read books. I love to philosophize. I am too romantic when I fall in love but too shy (or torpe) to make a move. I'm not handsome. and to top it all of, I'm not athletic.
There above is a summary of my qualities. There above are proofs. All of ya'll ladies probably know why I am thinking of this. I can read human psychology. I know when someone like me or when someone smiles or laughs genuinely. These things I have studied with the access of worldly knowledge (otherwise known as World Wide Web).
Anyway, some people are just made for being friends and some as lovers, love partners. I wish I wasn't but this is who I am. I guess it would be beneficial to just focus on the things I am good at and acquiesce to ignore things I'm not excellent at.

I think this is true

Your Brain's Pattern

Structured and organized, you have a knack for thinking clearly. You are very logical - and you don't let your thoughts get polluted with emotions. And while your thoughts are pretty serious, they're anything from boring. It's minds like yours that have built the great cities of the world!

What Pattern Is Your Brain?

How You Are In Love

You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time. You give completely and unconditionally in relationships. You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time. You're secretly hoping your partner will change for you. You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

How Are You In Love?

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Your Personality Profile

You are dignified, spiritual, and wise. Always unsatisfied, you constantly try to better yourself. You are also a seeker of knowledge and often buried in books. You tend to be philosophical, looking for the big picture in life. You dream of inner peace for yourself, your friends, and the world. A good friend, you always give of yourself first.

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Your Personality Profile

You are happy, driven, and status conscious. You want everyone to know how successful you are. Very logical, you see life as a game of strategy. A bit of a loner, you prefer to depend on yourself. You always keep your cool and your composure. You are a born leader and business person.

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A Song that will always Apply Humanity

[Chorus]
(One for all, one for all)
(It's all it's all for one)
Let's start a union, calling every human
It's one for all and all for one
Let's live in unison, calling every citizen
It's one for all and all for one
We don't want war- can't take no more
It's drastic time for sure
We need a antidant and a cure
Coz do you really think
Mohammed got a problem with Jehovah
We don't want war – imagine if any prophet was alive
In current days amongst you and I
You think they'd view life like you and I do
Or would they sit and contemplate on why
Do we live this way, act and behave this way
We still live in primitive today
Coz the peace in the destination of war can't be the way
There's no way, so people just be 'em wanna be a man
Realise that you can't change the world by changing yourself
And understand that we're all just the same
So when I count to three let's change

[Chorus]

Got no time for grand philosophy
I barely keep my head above the tide
I got this mortgage, got three kids at school
What you're saying is the truth, but really troubles me inside
I'd change the world if I could change my mind
If I could live beyond my fears
Exchanging unity for all my insecurity
Exchanging laughter for my tears

[Chorus]

I don't know, y'all, we in a real deposition
In the midst of all this negative condition
Divided by beliefs, different sink and religion
Why do we keep missing the point in our mission?
Why do we keep killing each other, what's the reason?
God made us all equal in his vision
I wish that I could make music as a religion
Then we could harmonise together in this missionL
isten, I know it's really hard to make changes
But two of us could help rearrange this curse
Utilising all the power in our voices
Together we will unite and make the right choice
And fight for education, save the next generation
Come together as oneI don't understand why it's never been done
So let's change on the count of oneIt takes one, just one
And then one follows the other one
And then another follows the other one
Next thing you know you got a billion
People doing some wonderful things
People doing some powerful things
Let's change and do some powerful things
Unity could be a wonderful thing

[Chorus]

LAW

Law: The system we follow. It has helped us to modernize, helped us to be just. To give a person what he deserves for a sin he has or has not done. Gave us hope in seeking justice to avenge those who suffered has suffered.
But lately in our beloved country, the Philippines, law has been an obstacle for Filipino people to move on and to stop their bickering and non-sense. It is true Arroyo cheated in the elections. She cheated. But, if she had not done that, who do you think will be our president? Avoiding painful, direct speeches here. It is a sin and she is wrong. You want to avenge the disrighteousness, attempt to play god over things that only He must decide over.
Why can we not move on and stop our endless complaining? Just admit that your actions will not have any positive effects or results on our country. We already are in deep shit, DO NOT GO DEEPER.

Maverick

"O kevin (my name at home), bakit namumula mata mo?", asked my mom.
"Nakakatulog na po kasi ako eh bumangon lang po ako para kumuha ng unan", I lied nervously
I cried that's why my eyes were abnormally red. I cried because I miss my friends so badly. I cried because of the intolerable desire to see and talk to them.
This unexplainable feeling of happiness that I feel with a simple, brief chat with them is intoxifying and intensely addicting. This is to be denied or at least dissipate because of the obvious conflict of time differences that my parents consider with my taliking through them with YM.
I know they will never be able to read this and only you, WWW, will know how I value my friends.

The Problematic Age-range

The age range of kids that I HATE is when they are aged 6-8. Some parents tell me that this is the time when a child develops a sense of what's right and wrong. I agree but they can't justify the proper attitude to each character that may fall in whatever of the two.
I hate this age-ranged kids because this is the time when they are soooooo noisy. Singing crappy songs that I swear when sang in front of a crowd, someone will stand in front of you and shoot you. I swear the crowd will cheer (not the singer they are cheering but their freedom).
They just keep on bugging you. Hey kuya! Look at this trick (shows you something disgusting). Hey kuya! How do you do this againm, this cool attack on the PS2 (Wrecks your tekken 4 cd becuase of button mashing). You know! And all those things that defines hell.
They keep fighting. Thinks they're so strong when you can obliterate his/her head with one blow. Always trying to win. Never a success though. They're so small. Looks for fighting, extremely childish (tinamaan ka, LOL).
And all those mischievousness that they soom to be completely made up of. Reminds me of myself when I was at their age. :)

Bus Experience

I just took the bus with my dad here. Some bus drivers will be extremely polite and courteous will others will be . . . uhhm. . .let’s just say “temperamental”. Well, that’s a lesson learned when thought about in the deeper sense. Be realistic in your expectations. Always bear in mind that whom you are dealing with are human beings. You know! Just like you. They commit mistakes and have several flaws that very seldom they admit, like you. This, be considered in weighing the Philippine President’s mistake (s) for her wrong judgment in demoralizing the elections. This simple analogy of bus driver to the president of a republic is far from being far-fetched. We are all humans anyway. Molded by our glorious creator, our every inch.

Yay!

Well, first days over. Just found out the courses that I would be studying for the year. Aside form the majors, the two electives that were able to accept me because of its vacancies was Music: Beginner’s Guitar and Foreign Language: Mandarin nine (wish me luck). One elective course is still missing. All the three preferred courses were unable to fulfill. All courses that I liked (loved, if you may) were chosen would have taken the liking of the majority of the school body. They chose their courses on March so they get to pick first and thereby increasing the chances of immediate acceptance, considering the prerequisite of said course meets. Well, that is how it is here when you are first immigrants. You start from the first block and work one’s way up (or at least they expect you to).

5 on ESL

I got a 5 on my ESL exam (being one as the lowest and five as the highest) and scored an 84% on my Math assessment test. Okay, I sucked! I reviewed for a Grade 9 exam and they gave me a Grade 8 leveled test. Ya’ll got to admit that you don’t really remember your previous math lessons unless you review to refresh your memory. To pass the test, I need to memorize the terms used which I didn’t study. Math is calculation okay? Never memorization. Leave that to science I had already met with a Palmer School Councilor, Ms. Charon Gill. She asked me to choose 3 courses and 2 alternative courses in case the one or two of the three first-preferred courses would be unable to fulfill.
I chose Technology Education 9, Beginner’s Guitar, and Video Editing and Animation. While the alternate courses that I chose were Drawing and Painting and the Beginner’s Mandarin. I am forced to because it may prove useful because one out of 4 individuals here speaks this language. My mom enrolled me in the French Immersion program. It means that almost half of my classes would be in the language of romance. So if attempts to master the two languages would be successful, I would have a total of 4 languages in my command. I want to learn Japanese but the course is already full. I want to learn it for me to understand anime. Deep, ain’t it?
The school will start on September 06 (September 07 will be the activation of our internet). The class would only last for one hour on the first day. The venue would be in my homeroom and the necessities and requirements shall be given on that day. Locks, program planners and etc. shall be distributed on said day.
I am thrilled to go to school because of the difference of its curriculum from our own.